“Tell me.”
“No.”
“I’m figuring out as we speak. You might as well fill in the
gaps.”
She glared at him. “Then figure it out.”
“No. Tell me. I would only get half the story and I don’t
half ass anything, so tell me or I’ll coerce you.”
“What, you gonna torture me?” she challenged.
“No, don’t need to. Just going to bother you.”
She stared at the wall resolutely, and finally he sighed.
“Look, we’re in here. We have no other alternative to listening
to each other talk other than watching the walls start to bleed. Talk, for
fuck’s sake.”
She caught his eye, and for the first time didn’t look away.
He stared back, eyes dark and wide and almost honest. She looked at her
crunched-up legs, focusing on a scuffed sneaker.
“I was climbing the ladder, the career ladder. I was determined.
Slept little, ate little, worked all the time, picked up extra shifts. I hadn’t
found the line yet…”
“big surprise,” he muttered, forgetting they were in a six
foot space. He immediately regretted it as her head whipped up, gaze hardened.
“You know what? Forget it.”
“Okay, okay, I’m –”
“No, you’re not,” she snapped. “You don’t care. Fuck this.
What is this supposed to be? We get caught in the elevator, it breaks, and now
we’re in some fucked-up version of The
Breakfast Club with only Brian and the Basketcase because of – because of –
budget cuts!”
He started laughing, which only pissed her off more.
“Fuck you.”
“Yes, fuck me, that’s funny!” he kept laughing. “Brian?
Basketcase? Hey, wait…I’m the nerdy brain? Gee, thanks.”
“Get real. I’m the nerdy brain. You’re the basketcase.”
“Whaaat? I don’t –”
“Oh, I’m sorry, you’re not a compulsive liar with an
obviously messed up parental relationship and a broody, outcast, caustic
disposition? Please.”
“Ouch. I’m not a compulsive liar. I plan.”
“Ouch. I’m not a compulsive liar. I plan.”
“Oh, that’s so much better.”
“Wait, so what, you’re the nerd? The quiet one? The insecure
one with great, magnificent insight and so much pressure from your parents?”
“Yep. I mean, everyone wants to be Bender or Claire, and I
saw a bit of myself in all of the characters, even the janitor or the dick
principal, but…I always was Brian, I know. Just that one line…” She paused,
biting her lip.
He thought. “…‘I don’t know pressure. Fuck you’?”
Genuine surprise. “No…‘I see myself in the mirror, you know,
and I…I don’t like what I see.’”
“Don’t be,” he said, shaking his head. She stared at him,
head cocked to the side, and visibly thought about his words, wondering if she
was foolish for misunderstanding…
“Don’t be what?”
“Don’t be…unhappy with yourself. You’ve got a lot less to be
unhappy about than most people, than I do. You’re…you’re one of the best people
I’ve met.”
“…Really?”
“Yeah. So, when you look in the mirror…like what you see.
You’re one of the few people that should.”
(c) CJB June 7 2012
This is mine. Don't steal.
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